Alone It took me almost two months to recuperate properly, but I am finally ready for a job. With summer and its many activities gone, my few friends busy with other things (like being in Rome, Italy right now, grr), I am in fact lacking in social interaction. For a hardcore introvert like myself that is saying a lot. I am actually feeling lonely!
Not to mention I am getting tired of counting the pennies. I need a new DVD player. I'd really love a new computer. All purchases are on hold until I get a steady income again. So far I have spent only 284,05€ (+ "rent") in September, which I think is pretty darn good.
It's hard to find a job though and I don't mean just in actually getting a job, but to find one that'll fit in with my study schedule. I have lectures starting at 4pm so I can't get a job where they demand me to be there from 8-16. I've sent a few inquiries to a few places asking if they allow flexible hours and never heard anything back. There's cleaning jobs pretty much any time of the day, but I absolutely hate cleaning. If I won't clean my own apartment then I'm not going to go clean somebody else's office either. I don't want any job where I am directly involved with customers. I have done enough of those. I've thought of a few data processing jobs (nice office job etc), but I sit in front of a computer enough as it is. I need to do the whole computer & internet thing for my studies. I don't need it for a job as well. I just don't know. I know I am far too picky.
Posted 21:17
Friday, September 24
Studies I should be doing far more than I am already and even right this moment I am procrastinating about a couple of things, but otherwise things are going well. A good part of my studies takes place on the internet, in the form of discussions on certain subjects. That has been hard to get used to. I have always been a lurker, not a poster. I have had to force myself to voice my opinions.
It is so great though to really have opinions. I know what people are talking about and I know what I am saying. I know this field, it is in my blood. In computer science I was the one sitting quietly at the back having no clue what was going on. Not so now. I still get overwhelmed occasionally when the true academics bring out their fancy words and incomprehensible sentences, but I am still able to grasp the underlying message in all of that. It is unbelievably satisfying to finally have an idea of where I belong.
This week I attended my first ever fun lecture. It was engaging and interesting from start to finish. Not entirely due to the subject matter, I'm pretty sure, but because the guest lecturer was also so good at it. Part of the lecture consisted of her describing what exactly she does at work and I found myself so jealous. She was describing my dream job (well one of them, after astronaut etc). Most importantly though was the revelation when I knew that I could do that job. I have what it takes. I would be really good at it.
I only wish I had started on all of this sooner.
Posted 10:43
Saturday, September 18
Star Wars DVDs As some of you may or may not have heard, Lucas is going to release the original Starwars movies on DVD. However, 'original' is a rather interesting term, since apparently Lucas has chosen to make even more changes. Certain face will be digitally altered with another etc. It's too sad to get into in detail.
Summer is over First snow fell in northern Finland today. Depressing.
Posted 20:56
Friday, September 10
Turning grey Last summer (2003) I decided to finally try dyeing my hair for the first time. I went from fairly dark brown haired person to a complete blond. Just out of curiousity to see what I would look like. It's been over a year now and many dyes later I have decided to have a peek at my own haircolour for a while. Except for some blond still lingering on top, I am back to my own mousy coloured hair.
It's been a shock to see just how much gray I have. It's not just a stripe here and a small patch there anymore, but there's gray everywhere. My father was completely gray by his 30s. Now in his 50s he's been totally white haired for years. My mother is almost completely gray in her 50s. With genes like that, I never stood a chance. I found my first gray hair when I was 18.
I don't really mind. If and when the gray begins to really bother me, I can always dye my hair. I'm just sad thinking that once my own hair colour is gone, it is gone forever and no amount of dye will ever bring it back to exactly like it was.