Sigh
One of the problems of being a woman, at least for me, is that sometimes it is hard to know for sure why I am feeling the way I am. Is there a justifiable reason to feel like crap or are my hormones just playing tricks on me?

Everytime I think that the weekend is over and I have to go to work tomorrow, I feel like curling up into a ball and crying. It's almost like the beginning of an anxiety attack. But I don't know if I really detest my work that much, or whether I am just tired or is it some particular time in the monthly cycle.
Posted 20:57

My job
I had a dream about my job last night. All past week I tried to get up the courage to tell my boss that I want to quit. There was never a good time. Either he wasn't alone or then in the usual bad mood, which I didn't want to add to. So, in the dream I am at work, as usual and suddenly the boss asks me 'Have you noticed that you are not giving as much to the work as you used to?' at which point I had the perfect opportunity to tell that I am seriously lacking in motivation and thinking of quitting. Now if only I could get that to happen in the real world as well.

The problem is that all of the vacation times have been planned already. When the boss goes on vacation, I am supposed to fill in. If I were to quit during the summer, it would upset the plans of three people (The boss, person A who'd replace me and person B who person A is filling in for). It would make me a very hated person. Right now I am thinking of hanging on till the end of July, which'll take care of most of the vacations.
Posted 10:47

Ouch
I punched myself in the eye today. I was trying to lift something heavy when my hand slipped and went flying backwards, knuckles first, straight into my eye. Oohh that hurt. Took a while before I could see anything. I am dangerous to myself. Reminds me of an old friend of mine who once, in a sort of a similar way, knocked himself unconscious.
Posted 19:58

Come to think of it...
Who and why decided which words should be written with the first letter capitalized? Why is it Sunday and not sunday? Going with the Finnish language rules, it would be sunday and christmas. Also, while I live in Finland, I am finnish, not Finnish. Sometimes it gets hard to remember which words get to be capitalized in English and which do not in Finnish.
Posted 17:44

I don't know what to do with myself
It's Sunday, no work. It is meant to be the day of rest, and yet I constantly have this nagging feeling that there is something important that I really should be doing. Yeah, I really need to clean my apartment, but things like that can always wait. I feel like there is something very essential that I am missing out on. It is hard to let go of old habits.

So far I have watched the entire season 2 of Sex and the City on DVD. Borrowed from a friend. I've been utterly amazed at the fact that I had seen every single episode before. I've never watched the series obsessively. Or so I thought.

Sometimes I think I'm a really confusing mix of contradictions. I can be such an anti-feminine geek sometimes and yet I love chick flicks, for one thing. I can't watch stupid TV shows (Anna Nicole Smith Show or whatever it was being a prime example) and yet I watch Big Brother (UK) intensely (4th one just started, 2nd remains my favorite). I just don't know...

And I am just babbling for lack of anything better to do.
Posted 17:26

Ha ha ha ha ha haaa
A worldwide survey was conducted by the UN. The only question asked was:"Would you please give your honest opinion about solutions to the food shortage in the rest of the world?"

The survey was a huge failure...

In Africa they didn't know what "food" meant.

In Eastern Europe they didn't know what "honest" meant.

In Western Europe they didn't know what "shortage" meant.

In China they didn't know what "opinion" meant.

In the Middle East they didn't know what "solution" meant.

In South America they didn't know what "please" meant.

And in the USA they didn't know what "the rest of the world" meant.
Posted 09:34